The busiest time of year for my team is year-end. We are rushing to get money onto contract. We are rushing to get all of the next year’s documents approved. We are rushing to get the next contract awarded. Year-end is rush, rush, and rush. I hate year-end and year beginning. But year –end is the month of September, not August.
For some reason, this year is different. There is so much stress and pressure in the office to finish up all the work immediately. We need to get the funds on contract now! We need to finish up the extension process yesterday! All FY15 documents must be collected and in our office fifteen minutes ago! The stress level in the office is actually worse than it has even been in any prior year-end, and again, this is not actually year-end.
On top of all of this you have the highly combative attitude of everyone. Customers are fighting with the contracting office. Contracting is fighting with MITRE. My Management is fighting with the customers. And everyone if fighting my office, and we are fighting with everyone. The hostility in the office is just thick.
I miss the old days when we worked as a team, and we worked with our customers and the contractor and didn’t fight against them. There was just so much more… peace when we were in Ft. Monmouth.
I talked to some of my long time customers, and they know that it’s not me. They know it’s all of the changes in staff. I try to keep my friendly relationship with my customers, but it is very hard to work within the restrictions that are being placed on me. These same restrictions that I am forced to place on them.
Well, today, I cracked. In fact, I think the whole office did. We were all in one weird mood. A contractor called me today, one who also called me yesterday, and even she noticed a difference between the two calls. I was just goofy and I think I scared her off the phone. It seemed as if we all threw up our hand and just gave up. I believe the stress just got to us; we were all just wacky.
So, I think I cracked. I think I lost my mind. Not that I had much of a mind to start with.